November 6, 2020

Friday. 9:41 am

3 days with God on that.

The hurt my heart feels is a profound sadness.

It paralyzed me. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t eat.

It’s that I can’t understand.

How is that they don’t know…?

How is it that they can’t see…?

When it was written so long ago?

Update- found this 4 last clover while I was waiting for this to upload… it’s only my second this year…I know what it means to me…

10 Things to remember for Tomorrow

I lay down tonight to rest with chills along my spine after a friend sent me a photo of the letter she was given by her work that allows her to leave her house and go to the nursing home where she works, explaining that she is essential to the care of her patients and must be allowed on there road. Another- in a different state informed me she had just gotten back from a walk and received the news that after 4:30 this afternoon she would not be permitted to leave her home for at least the next few weeks.

I feel as if I am living in a movie. It is too surreal. I I am sure it’s only a matter of time before these restrictions are in place in every state. When it hit me that ‘they’ could effectively lock us in and basically imprison us in our own homes, I felt a wave of panic wash over me.

It is with these thoughts and circumstances in mind that I will say to you tonight (and remind myself to practice tomorrow and in the days to come),

‘1. Be safe out there- and guard yourselves.

2. Love each other.

3. Remember that everyone is feeling the same fear and uncertainty that you are, so be compassionate.

4. If someone is on your mind, by all means, reach out. Yours may be the voice they need to hear on the other end of the line tonight.

5. ‘Do unto others, as you would have done unto you.’ Matthew 7:12

6. We are all in this together and that is how we will get through- together. It’s the only way.

7. Be patient. God’s timeline is not the same as ours.

8. Squeeze in some quiet moments and decompress with some deep breaths.

9. Remember God has your back and you can talk to him anytime you need.

10. It feels so different when I say to myself, ‘I’m isolating for health reasons.’, than when I say to myself, ‘They’re going to lock me in! ‘ I think I prefer to keep this voluntary… if at all possible. I may have to reframe that train of thought in my mind many times before this is over.

⁶Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4 6-7